this is bad, very bad. just check out the time on this blog entry.

i wake up to pee (like i always do) and then i can't go back to sleep. when i teach my mental health classes, i tell the students about bipolar disorder. i feel like i am manic because my mind is turned on and i can't get it to stop.

i finally got a doctor's appointment. i am uneasy about that because other doctors came more highly recommended. i just couldn't make a decision and was feeling anxious so i called my gp and they got me an appointment. the doctor i am seeing did my mom's tubal ligation (think that's what you call it) or tied her tubes. that was a traumatic experience for her. very painful, very invasive surgery. she's had many more problems since then. but i don't think that was the doctor's fault. i blame my dad more than anyone because the vasectomy is much less invasive as far as surgery goes. i told cory about that and he said "well you won't have to worry about that with me." he is so great.

i had a professor in college who said he would wake at 4 am and get in bed by 8 pm. we all thought he was crazy for getting up so early (we were in college!) but now it seems like a good schedule to me!

i have to teach classes today at another high school. it is a predominantly african american school. in the past it has been difficult for me to connect with those kids (probably because i am predominantly white). it upsets me because i want to make a connection and help them understand about mental health. minority communities have more mental health problems because of the extreme mundane environmental stress (dr. bowie would be proud. that's about the only thing i learned from him). so i am not sure how to better connect with them and make it interesting while covering the material i have to cover. i have a video that is a discussion led by an african american olympic athlete who has depression. i am thinkin of using that for part of the class. we'll see how it works. at least i won't have to talk as much.

i need a drink of water. i'll brb.