Wow mamma - long time, no see

 I met up with some of my college friends for a mini reunion a few weeks ago. One of my friends reminded me of this blog and  how it helped her through a rough time in her life. It helped me at a rough time to write everything out. I am grateful that it helped someone else as well.

Since then, I found this blog again and have been daydreaming about different ways to revive it, including topics to post about and how much privacy I want for myself and that others deserve when I am writing. At the time, it was a diary, and it was likely some over sharing. It’s difficult to determine where to draw that line. It probably shouldn’t be an open diary to verbally vomit all over the internet. It’s probably helpful to myself and maybe others if I am authentic and true to myself when I do write on a public post. I hear the voices of my past English teachers saying to determine my audience. Seems like a little work in progress…

A few random thoughts- my friend and a few others who have read “published” writings have commented on how I am a good writer. I’m not sure how to take that - right or wrong, I’m always comparing myself. Another classmate of mine is a very accomplished writer - you’d know who it is if I said. It’s human to compare. I understand it, but I don’t like the emotions dredging up. So just avoid it, right? Or do I keep on? Seems like writing helps so I suppose if I consider my purpose (self help and maybe helping others vs. fame and popularity) and consider my audience (for me and a small few) I can keep my own thoughts and feelings in perspective.

Other randomness - topics to write about 

- parenting adults - yes the babies featured on this blog are now “adults” 

- caregiving for aging parents - ugh, just I don’t even know what to say right now

- physical changes in middle age - pain and suffering, ugh x2

- combating loneliness in adulthood - let’s just rip the bandage right off and remember to take your meds

- politics and religion - depends on how feisty I’m feeling that day